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  <title>10 Year Visit.</title>
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  <description>Damn traffic. I wish it would go fast. I have a gorgeous Ferrari Spyder and I still feel like I dont have enough legroom. My baby needs space to run. It needs exercise. Whatever. I need to get to the cemetary.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Finally here. I get out of the car, heading over to the grassy section, Im glad she wasnt buryed in the wall. I wipe my eyes, Im crying already, thank god for sun glasses. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;No ones here, big suprise, you&apos;d think at least Diana and John would be here. They knew her almost as well as I. Sadly I dont think they&apos;d be showing up. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kneeling down, I stared at Tora&apos;s headstone, it reading:&lt;br /&gt;&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; &quot;Tora Olafsdotter&lt;br /&gt;&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; Best Friend, Sister, Daughter&lt;br /&gt;&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; Death Year 1996&quot;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;God. I wiped my eyes yet again, grabbing a tissue out from my jean&apos;s pocket. Theres frost on her headstone. Which is pretty appropriate yet confusing since its around 95 degrees out here. She must be here. I switch her flowers, lilies and tulips, her favorite. In a rare blue color which I find very beautiful. I pull my glasses past my head, smiling at her headstone.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&quot;I miss you, Tora.&quot; I whisper, a lump getting big in my throat. &quot;I dont know how you expect me to do this. 10 years you know? But you are always with me. Always.&quot; I kissed my two fingers, touching her headstone. &quot;I love you, Tora.&quot; I stood, getting ready to leave.</description>
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  <title>Well, Happy Anniversary</title>
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  <description>10 Years.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;10 years without Tora.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;10 years alone. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I promised myself I wouldnt break down. I promised Tora and I, I wouldnt cry after she was gone. After Ewald died, Tora and I had a huge conversation about what would happen if one of us were to...you know...die in battle. We made a promise to eachother, no matter which of us left first we wouldnt look to the past. Only to the future. We wouldnt mourn on whoevers deaths. We would move on in our job knowing that we would be with eachother forever. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;After Tora had came back from the Arctic Circle her powers had hightened. No one would think that now that she had these new powers she would be defeated. Especially by the one that GAVE Ewald his powers was to later kill Tora herself. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Damn... &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;There had to have been something I could have done. Maybe if I would have taken Tora&apos;s place in the battle with Overmaster.. Maybe Tora would still be ali-- I have to stop. Ill drown myself in my tears. Damn me. Tora&apos;s waiting. In her casket for me to replace her flowers, while Im home, crying over my loss. Disgraceful.</description>
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